All this week i was so like busy going to places that never seen before, where my parents / cousins took me. Untill i forgot to update. HEEE.. Very tired but very fun.

Miss all my crazy friends. Oh yeah, yesterday went to lo1 with my closest friends. We were taking noeprints and stuffs. To be honest eh.. i REALLY do sometimes like noeprints. But the machine is in a japanese vision. I wish my old friend was there. Because shes japanese!.. Still remember her name. Yumi Okochi! :)

Three hours later, chiow. After all thoes shopping and fun.

Taking about fun, is it fun going to swimming pool? Well.. SOMETIMES.

This weekend, will be going to swimming pool with cousins. Feel boring to go. But who knows its gonna be a huge fun or be just a simple joy with nothing. Get ready to find out this weekend!

Friday, YEAH. Cant wait for my grandmother new house. Yes, shes moving house. From Telok Belangah to Bukit Merah. Kidda far. Who cares, im just feel gald for her. New house with new stuffs. I really really hope that dad will allow computer in that house. Please dad please!

Coming this friday gotta help her stuffs. Wish me luck..!

The perious post was way to OVERLOADED. Whatever it is, i'm just OVER. That's all. But trust me, it was not my ordinary day.

When comes to anger, i'm trying to be ok. But no, i'm pushing the word "fuck" infront of the world. Argggh! Whatever i said, JUST FORGET IT.

Wooah.. this is so a nightmare. Really. I stuck in a WORST nightmare! Man, i wish i could somehow moved all those freaking people that i hate the most to the side of the hell. So they can be nighbours. Yeah be like friends forever. I don't care. These people don't even know what colour their butts is. They thinks they're so damn right. Like kiss my ass! You people don't even know what's the meaning of "apperciate". You guys think of yourself. You guys ONLY care about yourself. And you know what? Don't act smart. Because YOU'RE NOT!

Be friends with the fucking devils. Yeah, that's right. Devils and you have the SAME taste man. They are like soo gugu. If you don't know the meaning. Please do not check in the HUGEE dictionary cos theres no such word as gugu[s]. It's my own created word.

I hate being a freaking loser. Anyhow say that i have no fking reasons what i've said. Oh please, whatever i say is what i think. I think by using my brain. Not butt. You're the one whoes using butt language to talk. So better off tell your mummy whoes broken your little heart. As i said, "i dont give a flying fuck."

Ok, sometimes if i feel some kind of sad or angry, i could rather go watch comedy. OR listen to my fav songs. OR laughing my head off. They're so making me happy again. I got a tip. If you feel hurt, open a loud hardcore music and shake your head! I always did that. (:

Sometimes it's good being me because i love advising myself. But im not good in advising people. Kind of weird hah? Well, right now i wanna clear up my massy mind. Cheers~

YOU FONDLE MY TRIGGER, THEN YOU BLAME MY GUN

I fucking hate you. Keyword being FUCKING : as in like - fucking hate. Because I hate you to a certain extent where no other words can be replaced to express my intense hatred for you. I seriously, in all ways, mean this. I FUCKING HATE YOU. Fucking being the keyword.

I remember all your white lies. I remember all your fucking promises.

DON'T YOU DARE PUT ME DOWN JUST LIKE THAT. You can't call me stupid without contradicting your own life status in a mere second. Because you know what? I FUCKING HATE YOU. YOU'RE NOT MY FUCKING MOTHER. YOU'RE A FUCKING MONSTER.

Don't tell me I've not been studying. Don't you fcking dare say that I've been lazy, not revising my work. DON'T YOU EVER OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND SAY THOSE WORDS TO ME BECAUSE I KNOW YOU DON'T MEAN IT.

Where have you been all these while when I needed you? Oh, probably off to work. Or even better, "handling situations". Go to hell lah. All you did in your fucking life is shouting all day long and making people CRAZY like you. Who the hell do you think you are?

YOU WEREN'T EVEN FCKIN THERE TO SEE ME BURNING THE MIDNIGHT OIL, GRUELLING IN HORRIBLE STATES, and fulfilling my responsibilities as a student, and you dare throw your words around like a careless child suffering from mild dementia? You know what? In my 13 years of living, I haven't even experience ONE time when you helped me. not one.

So for that, I fucking hate you. I hate you so much.

And you know what? The sweetest part hasn't even started. IT'S THE PART CALLED RETRIBUTION. It's also the part where I score good marks so that I can slap them onto your fucking face and tell you "THANKS FOR FUCKING EVERYTHING UP FOR ME"

FUCK YOU.

I love this song! It rock!

NOT FOREVER
BY TSUNAMI BOMB


I thought that this was solid
Stability and safety sitting in my hand
Just take a look at your life
You're all alone!

Who'll be there when I need someone
Count on nobody and no one will let you down
I don't care, just let me go
I don't need this anymore

Love is not forever
Friendship is not forever
There is nothing set in stone
You're on your own

Who'll be there when I need someone
Count on nobody and no one will let you down
I don't care, just let me go
I don't need this anymore

I don't need this anymore!

Dependence is followed by weakness
Don't be your own hostage
If I know so many
Why don't they know me
They don't know me

Just take a look at your life
You're all alone!

Now I know what we're made of
Confusion, Complication, and Uncertainty
I thought this was real, I was wrong
So I don't know

Who'll be there when I need someone
Count on nobody and no one will let you down
I don't care, just let me go
I don't need this anymore

Who'll be there when I have no one
Don't expect that anyone will go out of their way
I don't care that I'm all alone
I don't need this anymore..

I want to change my life.
No more controlers.
My life's mine.
So start doing your fucking life.

I AM WHO I AM, SO TAKE ME AS THAT.

If you do got comments about me, please DONT let me know.
Because i dont give a flying fuck.

Fucking thank U.

wah! i have like a whole lot of stuff on my mind right now. i did my quizzes. results kinda differed..

You Are 15 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

You Are a Bad Girl

You are 30% Good and 70% Bad You're a total bad girl, from your wild hair to tattooed toes. But you're too badass to even care if you're labeled "bad"!

You Are a Down to Earth Doll

You're good looking and you realize that looks matter And you also know that it's your inside that really shines You do your best to look like an A-lister But you devote most of your time to being a well rounded hottie

Arty Kid

Whether you were a drama freak or an emo poet, you definitely were expressive and unique. You're probably a little less weird these days - but even more talented!

You are White Chocolate

You have a strong feminine side with a good bit of innocence thrown in. Whether your girlish ways are an act or not, men like to take care of you. You are an understated beauty, and your power is often underestimated!

Your Celebrity Style Twin is Gwen Stefani

Trendsetting, unique, and stylish.

thats all i have. so tata.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

today i really had a bad day of experience smells. my mom, bro and me went to expo just to see the children festival. im kidda childish ya.

we took the mrt. i was so damn surrounded by this malay and white guy. they were wearing baju kurung! of couse that malay guy wear baju kurung. i meant the white guy wear baju kurung! wow.. guess hes interested in hari raya huh?

lets talk about de smells that i smelled. those guys were surrounded me right? this malay guy was standing on my left side which he was leading back the mrt "door". and his white guy friend was standing right infront him. the white guy's hand was holding the handle which was beside me. while he was holding that handle, his smell went to me. actually that was not his smell. that was his perfune, i guess. really making me mad sak. his hand was getting closer to me, and i was like want to complain sia. when they were gone, the smell of the fresh air were back. then came a chinses man. he smells goooooddd :) not like that whity guy! :P

at expo, my bro bought Mr Mignight book. we met james lee! my mom wanted him to sign my bro's book. but fucking lucky, my mom changed her mind bcos the Q line was so long. and many ppl were complain fer cut their Q. stupid right? wasting our time only..

after buying things, we went to bedok. which i used to live there. seriously, i love staying there than bukit panjang. anyway, went there to eat. the food there were so damn delicious!

after eating, went home by bus. suddenly there was a chinese lady asked me rather someone sit beside me or not. she asked me in chinese! i was like blury sia. WO BU ZHI DAO CHINESE lar! hahas.. btw, she was such a sweet lady! in bus, i smelled something fishy. not fish. but fishy. when this strange old man came inside de bus, he brought something with him. i dont know what de heck was that. but that really smells nastyy! *wonder whats that thing* another one. came a group of india guys. woaah.. smells very.. nvm.

you know today, wherever i go, i smells things that really yeckky. guess im good in smelling huh?

i think some perfune are smelly. especially those.. nvm! :P find it yourself ya? x)

Friday, November 11, 2005

hey yo!
this is my first post to this first blog of mine. actually, this is my second blog. but sadly, de first blog, really have to fix it. maybe some kind of those fucking errors.. btw, i deleted my first blog. with the new blog and new life.
ok, lets talk about yesterday. me and my cousin, nurul went to causewaypoint. we were planin' to watch a movie. a scary movie. yea! but in the end, i slept with my mum. hahas!

The Exorcism Of Emily Rose is the title of de movie we watched. the movie really freaked me out, man. lots of shouting, screaming. i think it was more than a scary movie.

if u wanna watch that movie, WATCH IT WITH YOUR FAMILY OR FRIENDS.

hahas, is it big enough fer you to read that attention from me to YOU? the more ppl watch with you, the more you'll not get scared. unless your not frightened lar.

after the movie, we were actually suppost to go my another cousin house fer hari raya. then we recieved a call from our mum to straight away go to my cousin house. fun seh. no need to use baju kurang. cos its so troublesome!

we reached there about 830pm. then everyone were lyke asking us how's de movie. "scary or not??" walau.. they were soo making us "flashing back" our "scaryness" sia. blah blah.. and de story goes on..

about 10pm, my family and my cousin went my grandfather's cousin side. which is ziela's house.

went home about 1030. very tired but very fun. hahas..

btw, today is nurul birthday! i wish her a very happy birthday!! x))!